With new life comes new love

Hello everyone :) Hope you all slept well. As a request I have been asked to write about what my pregnancy has been like. Im happy to know people are coming to the blog. Well Jared and I got pregnant two weeks after he got back from the Mojave Viper training in California. It was a month long field op so I guess it was really no surprise I got pregnant. Three weeks after he got back we drove to Philadelphia to visit his family. I had been telling Jared for over a week that I thought something was "off". I felt exhausted all the time. Which is weird for me since I am normally full of enegry. I told Jared I thought I might be pregnant. So the day before we left Philly ( we had been there 2 weeks) We snuck away to the store and bought a test. I took it in secret so his mom would freak out. It came back negative. Which was kind of a relief, but to my surprise I burst into tears. I came out of the bathroom shaking my head and crying. Which left Jared incredibly confused. I sobbed and told him that if anything happened to him atleased I would have a baby. But a baby had not even been in our plans yet ( lol I look back and see this as my first of many crazy hormonal freakouts) Jared just held me until I stopped crying. He told me it was ok and if I still wanted a baby when he got home we could have one. Well the next day we made it home. Two days passed. Finally three days after we had made it back, I walked into our room and glanced at my purse. I noticed the First response box sticking out. I figured what the hell. We had spent 20 dollars on the test might as well take the last one. So I went into the bathroom and took the test.  I left it on the sink in the bathroom. I went back out into the living room this Jared and completely forgot about it. 15 minuets later I walked back in to start a shower. I looked down and the test said "yes". I turned white, and started to cry hysterically. The first thought in my mind was " omg im growing a person, theres a person in there!" I grabbed the test and ran out of the bathroom yelling for Jared. He looked up from his video games. I was standing in front of him waving the test around. He smiled and said " its positive, your pregnant arent you?" I shook my head and began to cry again. He reached his arms out and signaled for me to come sit with him. He laughed and said " so you cry when your not pregnant, and you cry when you are. I swear you are the most confusing woman on this planet." I laughed still crying.  He then asked me why I was crying. My response was " because im going to get fat" To this day Jared still laughs at me for that one. Which thank god never came true. A week after we found out Jared deployed. He was able to make it to my first Drs appointment and we had a sonogram which all we could see was the gestational sac since I was only 5 weeks along. ( always subtract two weeks from what your doctor says. we had conceived 3 weeks prior to the visit.) Soon after Jared left I began to have light bleeding problems. At first i was absolutely terrified. I thought I was miscarrying. But the doctor told me everything was fine. The bleeding happened again at 14 weeks. This time it was a lot more blood. So I jumped in the car and drove to the emergency room. Again they told me everything was fine and the baby looked great. The next day I went in to my doctors to check up and make sure everything still looked good. I went in for my ultrasound and the tech asked me if I knew what I was having. I told her no ( normally you find out the sex of your baby at 18 weeks) She said well im telling you right now girls dont have those. She pointed at the screen and said "congratulations its a boy". I was so happy! I had been hoping for a little boy. It wasnt until two days later I was able to tell Jared the news. I kind of caught him off guard . I just blurted it out in the middle of a sentence. The phone was silent for a moment then Jared said " Its a boy?" I told him yes then he started yelling at all his buddies in the com room with him bragging that he was having a little boy. Since then not to much has happened. I have gained about 10 lbs my whole pregnancy. I felt the babies first movements at 18 weeks. I have grown out ward alot. I can no longer see my feet , and bending down has gotten harder. The worst part of it all would have to have been my acid reflux and heartburn problems.( old wives tale says that if you have heart burn your baby will have a lot of hair. fingers crossed!) The only other thing is that since i have such a short waist my lungs get squished so breathing is getting harder. Other than that I have nothing to complain about. Its been smooth sailing. In just two short months baby Ryder Patrick Hoinkis will be here. Well thats about it, until I go into labor. So keep reading!