Hey guys. Well I woke up this morning to a very active baby boy. I just laid there on my right side and watched him wiggle around. It made me wonder what they think about since the only thing they see is the inside of the womb.But while I was laying there I thought holy crap in just 8 short weeks Jared and I are going to be parents. (This is a thought at hits me quite frequently, but it dosnt make it any less scary) I mean yeah I have been pregnant for 8 months, you think I would have kind of gotten used to the idea. Well I haven't. It still seems very surreal. I dont know if its because my husband has been on the other side of the world for most of my pregnancy, and I haven't gotten to share the things I should have with him, I dont know. I have my days where I am so excited and all I want to do is hang out in Ryder's nursery. Just sit in my rocker and stay there. Then i also have my days where im pretty much in a straight up panic.I keep thinking "omg im going to be a mom", "what if breast feeding dosnt work out,then he would have to be on formula and get colic", or "omg I will never sleep again". It almost seems like a never ending cycle of being super excited or incredibly scared. I need some help. So readers this is where you interject some advice. I know im sure things will change as soon as I hold our baby in my arms. I hope to have that theatrical moment where music plays and we gaze into each others eyes, maybe I start crying. lol who knows but that's what im hoping for. Even though I have been told it might not happen like that. I might be to exhausted to really feel much of anything. I just need some one who has been through what im about to go through to tell me what we are headed for. I feel like no matter how many books, blogs or articles i read it dosnt measure up to advice from someone who has been there. I have probably over educated myself on the topic, and thats probably why im so scared. Just some one please clear the air for me. Give me the facts. I need it desperately.
Lauren
Hey, I had problems with breastfeeding and had to put Jace on formula. I put him on the Similac Sensitive and we haven't really had any problems with colic. I hope you have a delightful baby like Jace, who sleeps all night and is happy all day long. I was scared all the time, mostly because I would realize that I was going to be at home with the baby all the time because Randy has to work a lot. But it truly was like nothing I have ever felt when they put Jace in my arms. There wasn't the music or gazing into each others eyes. Just pure love. I knew at that moment I loved that baby and that somehow he loved me back. It will continue to be scary and exciting up until you have him. But as soon as they hand him to you, you forget all the fear, all the pain, and you just have your perfect family.
ReplyDeleteThanks Cortney :) I just want to be happy instead of scared. I know Jared is pretty scared too. I mean I know how to handle babies. I took care of Avery when she was an infant. I just feel now that its my own its a whole other ball park.
ReplyDeleteI had no idea how to take care of a baby. That was another fear of mine. I hated children, but when I held Jace the first time it was amazing. I love taking care of him. [=
ReplyDeleteSee im not worried about that. I love kids and I want two or three. Maybe four. lol we will see how we feel after two, but I just want the anxiety to go away.
ReplyDeleteI was way too tired to even be nervous when I first gave birth. The nurse helped more than I imagined they would. They have a lactation consultant so you should be just fine! I had a panic attack the day after I gave birth. We left the hospital int he afternoon, went to Wal Mart, went out to dinner, then went to Wal Mart again and that is when I looked at him and freaked OUT. I wasn't scared about the present time, I was scared because I thought to myself "Holy crud this kid is in my care for 18 years. What am I going to do?" lol. But I got over it and now I just go with the flow!
ReplyDeleteThanks Jessica! I really just need to chill, but then I think about how Jared is going to react to all the change that has happened since he left and I freak out! I hope he takes everything ok. Just kinda scary!
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