This love is ours

You know what I love? I love being able to stare down at my wedding rings and be able to recall every moment of our wedding. I love being able to see that smile as you recited our vows. I should have wrote this blog weeks ago.
         December 27th was our first wedding anniversary. I wish our first year of marriage could have been different. Instead of spending more than half of it more than 7,000 miles apart, but I know it only made us stronger. Distance makes the heart grown fonder. I love you more and more every day Jared. You have been the best husband and best friend any woman could ever ask for.
         Last night when we were in bed, and you were so concerned about if I was comfortable or not. You kept asking if there was anything you could do. It made me so happy to see you so attentive. You just laid there and held me while I tried my hardest to find a comfortable position. ( which let me tell you is nearly impossible when your 37 weeks pregnant) You just hugged me tight and kissed my shoulders. Im one lucky girl :)
         I could go on and on about you honey. I knew marrying you was the best decision of my life. After seven years of trusting you with my secrets, crying on your shoulder, and slowly falling head of heals for you. There was no hesitation in saying yes to you. I dont care how much everyone disapproved of us marrying so young. I dont care people think we shouldnt be having Ryder. I have an amazing life that I would not change for the world. I am ready to spend the rest of my life with you. Celebrating our sons birthdays , buying our first home, and growing old together. We will show them baby. We will make it. 50 years from now no one will tell us we made a mistake. Its our life honey, This love is ours. Lets make the best of it.

Lauren

Love my life!

Hello everyone! I hope you all had a great weekend! Mine was pretty good, Jared and I just relaxed. I have been having a lot of Braxton Hicks contractions. So staying off my feet and keeping myself hydrated is the best thing right now. I actually had a doctors appointment this morning. It was the first ultrasound Jared has been to since I was 5 weeks pregnant. I mean the baby is all squished right now so it was hard to tell what was what but im just happy he was able to be there. They also gave me a ball park estimate as to his weight. They said hes around 5lbs 5 ounces right now. Give or take a little. It was hard for the tech to get a good measurement of his head since he was so low into my pelvis. He has always been so difficult for the ultrasounds. Im hoping here pretty soon I go into labor. Ryder has dropped quite a bit and I am getting more and more uncomfortable. My contractions have gotten more frequent too. I was very surprised that my weight has not gone up. I have actually lost a few pounds. I have been struggling to even gain 10lbs during my pregnancy. I am not complaining. I just hope Ryder is ok. They keep telling me he is fine. I guess im worrying to much. I need to just take a chill pill and relax. Soon I wont be getting much rest at all!
       If your wondering about the picture at the top, I had to sneak and take it. Jared likes to act like he dislikes Teddy Bear, but honestly does that look like dislike to you? He loves that dog. He babies him more than I do. Jared is always playing or snuggling with Teddy. Teddy now likes Jared more than me! He gets so upset every morning when Jared leaves for work. You should see how excited he gets when Jared finally gets home. He acts like he has been so abused all day. Well Im going to call it a night. I have been easily fatigued lately and my leg cramps are getting worse. I hope everyone has a good night. I will keep you all posted on any changes! Good night!

Lauren

Yay for nesting!

Hello everyone! I hope your having a wonderful Saturday! I know I am. My nesting instinct has FINALLY kicked in and I have been cleaning all day. I scrubbed the kitchen and re organized all the cabinets. Then Jared took apart the dining room table which we hardly use, to make room for our new couch. I vacuumed the whole house and swept out all the corners. All I have left is the spare bathroom and our bedroom. Now im taking a little breather. I have been losing pieces of my mucous plug so I dont want to over do it. Baby needs to stay in just a few more weeks. ( lol ideally two)  He needs to come out! Jared and I just got back from walking Teddy. I was getting a little sore so we cut the walk short. I dont need my water breaking. Now we are back home waiting on the furniture store to come and deliver the other half of our sectional. I feel all ghetto only having a part of it. Plus it just looks stupid. I hate that I am so anal about my house, but I am. I like to have everything in order. The fact that Ryder's nursery is now a store room is driving me nuts! Its even all organized! I just really wanted my little man to have a bed room :( Oh well we will wait until the move I guess. That way I can paint his room and make it look just the way I want it too. I plan on finally painting the hole house. I am going to redo my living room in western. Im going to paint it a nice rusty red. Which will look great with our new tan sectional. And eventually after I start working, I plan on getting a new bedroom set!. One thing at a time. I WILL replace all this college dorm furniture. Next will be a new entertainment center. Plus I still need to redo the kitchen table. Man this nesting thing just has me all ready to get things the way I want it! Well Im going to get back to cleaning. I still have lots to do, and the dryer just went off. I will keep everyone updated! I hope you have an amazing weekend.

Lauren

A lesson learned

Well we have had one hell of a day. Jared and I just recently bought a new sectional couch. We went to the same furniture store our friends Sam and Jordan had bought there new pieces at. The store was having a liquidation sale and everything was half off. We got a great deal on a "L" shaped microfiber sectional that had originally been a 2,000 dollar couch that we got half off. The sales man had informed us that the only one they had left was the floor model. Which was fine. We looked it over and found two small tears, which the salesman said would be repaired before pick up the next day. We had also paid 170 dollars for a protection warranty. We had figured with the baby it would be a good idea. The salesman said if anything happened to the couch someone would come to our home to repair it. Well today Jared went to pick it up. First thing we noticed was that they had not even moved it to the warehouse yet, and they didn't wrap it like they told us they would!  We got the first half of the sectional home. Which was a horrible pain to move into our second floor apartment. The couch has two recliners built in which makes it incredibly heavy. Once we go it in I started to inspect it. I pulled up the cushion and the tear I had pointed out the day before was still there. They had not fixed a single problem. So Jared left to pick up the second half of our couch while I called to complain. A few minutes later Jared returned empty handed. He had been informed that there was no such thing as "at home repair" and they were wanting us to take the piece we had just moved in BACK to the store for the repairs that should have already been taken care off. Well that wasn't going to happen. It was so heavy and such a pain to maneuver . So Jared and I marched up to the store and demanded to speak with a manager. The manager apologized and said if we could bring it back up they would repair it and deliver both pieces for free. We told him no. He was going to deliver the last piece to our home with no cost. There was no way we were bringing the other half back. I would fix the freaking rip. As we walked out the salesman that had lied to us followed us out telling us if we needed anything just to ask him. Well no you lied to us. Had us pay for a warranty that didn't even exist. We only got the warranty because he said it was "at home". We wont be dragging it up to the store every time there is a problem with it. Tomorrow Jared is going back to the store to demand a refund of the warranty. I guess its just been one of those days. Its just so sad someone would rip off a veteran and his family. Lesson learned NEVER SHOP AT FURNITURE FAIR.




Lauren

Time to get things done!

Good morning everyone! Im in a better mood today, well trying to be in a better mood. I dont know why but I have just been angry lately! Its not fair to Teddy and Jared but I have just been so sensitive about everything. I just about have the LONGEST list of things to do today:

1.)I have to clean my discusting house. And when I say clean I mean CLEAN! My plan is to organize everything we are not using into boxes or plastic storage bins.

2.) Go to the hospital and pre register for labor and delivery.

3.) Go and get the break light replaced on my car. ( they will be happy to see me. I was just at Meineke yesterday getting Jareds break light fixed)

4.) Go on base and get a sweater so I quite stealing Jareds. He is home now and I cant get away with it anymore.

5.) Once Jared gets home we are going couch shopping. I think I finally have him talked into a new one.

I need to get all this done. Plus I need some good old fashion me time. It tends to relax me when I run errands by myself. Wish I could get a pedicure. Oh well. I just think I need some time to think. Clear my mind. Spend a little time with my pea in the pod. Then I will come back home and stress about cleaning up my house. If we find a couch today we might have to move our old one and rocking chair into the "storage" room. Along with our kitchen table, since Jared is set on a "L" shaped leather couch. Lets just hope this couch shopping goes smoothly. Jared tends to freak out a little when It comes to larger purchaces. But we really need to start accumulating newer furniture. Everything we have is hand me downs. I want to buy furniture that will last, and look nice. Our house just screams college Walmart furniture! Time to get some grown up furniture! Well im gonna finish my breakfast and get this day started. Thanks for reading.

Lauren

NOT my idea of a good morning.

Ok so I have decided that todays post is going to be a Rant/ get things off my chest post. Im pregnant and grumpy today. I really need this.

         Ok here we go. So this morning Jared called me to tell me that Himself and a friend were coming by the house to pick up gear for a gear inspection. Ok thats fine no big deal. I needed to get out of bed anyway. I got out of bed fixed my scary wild hair, and picked up a little before they got here. Finally Jared and his buddy Call arrived. Call went onto the porch to get his gear which had been stored in a plastic bin for deployment. Meanwhile Jared was in the process of destroying my nursery AGAIN. I had everything all organized. All his gear had been placed into big plastic containers. I cant stand mess. I understand that we cant use the babies room as his nursery until we get moved, but please respect me enough and all the hard work I put into keeping this place clean and pick up after your self. I feel so run over. I am NOT a maid. I dont mind picking up your clothes or doing your dishes, but dont destroy my house that  I work so hard to keep clean! End rant one.

        Second thing that has set me off this morning. While Jared and Call were here getting gear, Call got Teddy out to play. Then he asked where Jareds puppy Jakk was. Then Jared proceeded to tell him that I had given Jakk away. Making me look like the bad guy. He thinks its a huge joke, but I know he had told all his friends in Afghanistan that I had gotten rid of his dog. Im sure they all think im some huge raging bitch for it too. I have told Jared repeatedly not to bring it up anymore. It hurts me that he would put me on the spot like that. First thing I said to him when I asked to find Jakk a new home was. "If you dont want me to get rid of him please tell me." But he said he understood. He said it was stressful having a little puppy and being pregnant. Plus you would think after that dog eating two holes in our floor and a hole in our wall, yeah it would make sense to find him a home better suited for him. I really feel like deep down Jared resents me for getting rid of him. He wont admit to it, and I have asked him many times if he is angry at me for doing it. But he keeps telling me its ok. Well if you are so ok with it, quite bringing it up. It makes me feel like a horrible wife! I didnt do it to spite you or be mean to you. I love you. I just couldnt handle raising two puppies alone and being pregnant all by myself. It was just to much. Plus you had not been there hardly at all ever sense we had gotten Jakk. the first month you were in California training for deployment. Then you came home for a few weeks then you deployed. I was the one at home with him all the time. Dealing with him tearing EVERYTHING up and destroying our home. Just please Jared give me a break. I didnt not do that to be mean to you. I just could not handle it all. And if you are angry about me getting rid of Jakk tell me. Dont hide it so you dont upset me. Im a big girl I can handle it. End rant.

        Im really sorry everyone if you got on here expecting a cheery happy post. I am just having a really cranky morning. I will try to calm down and hopefully  start to write a happier blog. Thanks for reading though. If you have any advice it would be greatly appreciated

Lauren.

Anxiety. Shes a bitch.

Well everyone, It finally hit me. In less than 30 days Jared and I are going to be parents. It scares me. I know I have had the last 8 months to prepare, I see all Ryders things everyday. But now that it is so close its scaring me. I hope this is how every first time mom feels. I dont want to make it seem like my child is unwanted. He is far from that. I am just so nervous, and I bet Jared feels the same way. We will see. Maybe when I finally see him all this anxiety will go away. Plus im sure all these contractions and just generally being uncomfortable are not helping my situation. I have been feeling my Braxton hicks contractions up in my lungs every time they happen. Its so awful. I literally feel like I am on the verge of exploding. Thank God this will all be over soon. I just want to get it all over and done with. Jared just did one of those really cute things that just literally melted away my anxiety. We are sitting together on the couch watching the Big bang theory. I have my shirt lifted up over my belly since I was getting kind of warm but still to cold to take my sweater off. He just placed his hand on my belly and started rubbing it. He was smiling. It was so sweet. Jared normally dosnt do these kinds of things. I know he is excited about the baby but I know he has some deep seeded fears like I do. But when he does things like that, It reassures me that its all going to be ok. We are ready for this and what ever else life throws at us. I bet after my last ultrasound next week It will get us both more excited. They are going to weigh and measure Ryder. Im so excited to know how big he is. My family has a wager going as to his length and weight. Everyone thinks he will stay under 7lbs. So do I. Im betting 6lbs 4 Ounces. and 17 inches. Jared and I both were small babies and im just little to begin with. I wish there was some way they could tell  me his hair color lol. Mine and Jared's family has such a wide variety of hair colors. Im just dying to know! Lol about 28 more days Lauren. God that's weird to say. Well I guess I will get my lazy butt up and get ready. We are helping some friends of ours pick up a new couch today. Same thing we did yesterday lol. Ill keep everyone updated on upcoming events. So keep reading!