NOT my idea of a good morning.

Ok so I have decided that todays post is going to be a Rant/ get things off my chest post. Im pregnant and grumpy today. I really need this.

         Ok here we go. So this morning Jared called me to tell me that Himself and a friend were coming by the house to pick up gear for a gear inspection. Ok thats fine no big deal. I needed to get out of bed anyway. I got out of bed fixed my scary wild hair, and picked up a little before they got here. Finally Jared and his buddy Call arrived. Call went onto the porch to get his gear which had been stored in a plastic bin for deployment. Meanwhile Jared was in the process of destroying my nursery AGAIN. I had everything all organized. All his gear had been placed into big plastic containers. I cant stand mess. I understand that we cant use the babies room as his nursery until we get moved, but please respect me enough and all the hard work I put into keeping this place clean and pick up after your self. I feel so run over. I am NOT a maid. I dont mind picking up your clothes or doing your dishes, but dont destroy my house that  I work so hard to keep clean! End rant one.

        Second thing that has set me off this morning. While Jared and Call were here getting gear, Call got Teddy out to play. Then he asked where Jareds puppy Jakk was. Then Jared proceeded to tell him that I had given Jakk away. Making me look like the bad guy. He thinks its a huge joke, but I know he had told all his friends in Afghanistan that I had gotten rid of his dog. Im sure they all think im some huge raging bitch for it too. I have told Jared repeatedly not to bring it up anymore. It hurts me that he would put me on the spot like that. First thing I said to him when I asked to find Jakk a new home was. "If you dont want me to get rid of him please tell me." But he said he understood. He said it was stressful having a little puppy and being pregnant. Plus you would think after that dog eating two holes in our floor and a hole in our wall, yeah it would make sense to find him a home better suited for him. I really feel like deep down Jared resents me for getting rid of him. He wont admit to it, and I have asked him many times if he is angry at me for doing it. But he keeps telling me its ok. Well if you are so ok with it, quite bringing it up. It makes me feel like a horrible wife! I didnt do it to spite you or be mean to you. I love you. I just couldnt handle raising two puppies alone and being pregnant all by myself. It was just to much. Plus you had not been there hardly at all ever sense we had gotten Jakk. the first month you were in California training for deployment. Then you came home for a few weeks then you deployed. I was the one at home with him all the time. Dealing with him tearing EVERYTHING up and destroying our home. Just please Jared give me a break. I didnt not do that to be mean to you. I just could not handle it all. And if you are angry about me getting rid of Jakk tell me. Dont hide it so you dont upset me. Im a big girl I can handle it. End rant.

        Im really sorry everyone if you got on here expecting a cheery happy post. I am just having a really cranky morning. I will try to calm down and hopefully  start to write a happier blog. Thanks for reading though. If you have any advice it would be greatly appreciated

Lauren.