What a wonderful life..

Hello everyone. Its been a while since I have had the time to Blog. Life has been a little hectic as of late, being a mom has taken up all of my time. When I actually have a little spare time I need to devote the rare occasion to my husband. We have not been able to have hardly anytime together since the baby got here. I mean we are together most of the day but we are busy with Ryder.
           Things have actually been stressful lately. Ryder has become very gassy which has made him really cranky. He dose not sleep well anymore. He refuses to let us put him in his crib, and will only sleep well if we are holding him. Now I understand he was inside me for 9 months and It takes some adjusting being out in the world. Its just making things really hard. I know this is something all moms go though and I might be in the wrong for complaining about it. I just need things to wind down. I was nearly in tears this morning. I had to hand the screaming baby to Jared while I went and sat in a hot shower for about 45 minuets. I needed silence, and thank god the sound of the running water drowned everything out. I needed "me" time. I was going to lose it if I didn't get any time to myself.
             I feel guilty for being so overwhelmed. I knew what we were getting into when I got pregnant. I just thought since I had taken care of my little sister when she was an infant, that it would have better prepared me for life as a parent. I just fell like it did nothing. He screams and cries and I have no clue what is wrong with him. He has been fed, burped, changed, and given gas medicine but he still screams. I cant wait for this phase to be over.It will be so much better once we are moved and he has his own room. I think that might be part of the problem is that Jared and I have no space that is just our own. It will be nice once Ryder has an actual nursery. I think it will cut down my irritability as well. I have really had to bite my tongue the last few day. Jared dosnt deserve to be snapped at. He has done nothing wrong. He is just as new to this parenting thing as I am. I just need to breath. Right now im feeding Ryder but I have my ipod plugged into my head to drown out any background noise. Its helping. Well I have to get back to my motherly duties. Have a wonderful weekend.

Lauren

Update on Ryder!

Hello everyone! Sorry it has been so long since my last post. I have just been so busy adjusting to the roll of mommy! We have been doing great. Ryder is such a sweet, easy going little boy. Hes a snuggler though. He does not like to be put down, but I have to let him fuss sometimes. He has to learn to sleep on his own. He is pretty good during the day, but as soon as we put him in his crib at night he is restless. We swaddle him and play his sound maker for him which helps, but all he wants is to be rocked. So to temporarily solve the problem we put his Mommaroo in our bedroom. I hate running it all night since it was expensive, and I dont want it to die on us. He just wont sleep unless he is in motion. I think it has a lot to do with him being gassy. I think he also gets intestinal cramps. Poor baby. I had the same tummy issues when I was a baby. Thank god he does not have colic. I see all my friends on FB who have babies with colic. They don't sleep a wink. Ryder normally only wakes up once a night to be fed and changed. I don't know what we would do if he kept us up all night. I guess we got a little spoiled. Hes such an angel. Not only is he super good he's also ADORABLE! I swear I have never seen a cuter baby. I know im probably just being biased since he's mine, but that dosnt matter. To Jared and I there is no comparison. He is such a good mix of both Jared and I. from the eyes up he looks like his daddy. Then from the nose down he looks just like me. Im just dying to know what color is eyes are going to be. Im hoping they are Jared's. Mine are just brown. Boring. But Jared's are hazel with a bunch of green in them. They are beautiful. I could go on and on about my little family, but my baby boy is waking up so I have to go feed him. I hope everyone is well and I will post again as soon as I have a little free time.

Lauren

My labor story

Ryder is FINALLY here! My labor happened out of no where and so fast. I have not had the time to get on here and update everyone like I had originally planned. But from experience, nothing goes as planned. So here's the story.
                I woke up the morning of the 4th feeling fine. We had to wake up early to take some of our good friends to the air port. We arrived at there home at about 8:30am. I had started to feel some light contractions. Nothing very painful, just aggravating. By the time we made it to the air port about 45 minutes later my contractions had become incredibly painful. We were on our way home and I was hurting so bad I was in tears. Jared was very worried and wanted to head to the hospital immediately, but we had just gone in the night before and the nurse had told us then she didnt think I was in labor. I did not want to go back in just to be turned away again. I had been timing my contractions and while they were very painful they just were not consistant enough. Or so I thought. We made it home at about 10am. I went immediately to our room and laid down in bed. Jared came in and it shocked him that I was laying in bed crying because I was hurting so much. He was demanding we leave and go to the hospital but I refused. I then rolled over to get up and go to the bathroom. Just then I felt a "pop" and suddenly warm water was running down my leg. I rushed into the bathroom thinking maybe the baby had kicked me in the bladder, but no the fluid continued to run down my legs. So we grabbed our things and rushed to the hospital. We made it to the ER in less than 10 min. We were standing in line to check in and suddenly i felt another gush and then another. My pad that I had put on before we left the house was now completely soaked and I was leaking all over the ER floor. I made it to the front and told the receptionist that I needed a towel since I was standing in a puddle of amniotic fluid. Several embarrassing moments later we were up in our room in Labor and delivery. The nurse checked me and she confirmed that my water had broken. She also told me that I was only 3cm dilated. I was in so much pain. I was begging her to give me something. She told me I was not far along enough to receive my epidural but she could give me IV pain meds. I agreed. They gave me the medicine through the IV. Five minuets later I was on cloud 9.I later found out that since I am so little the normal dosage amount of pain medicine had been a little to much for me. To put it bluntly I was stoned. I dont remember a lot of my short labor. I remember progressing incredibly fast and still feeling a ton of pain. Finally the anesthesiologist came in to give me my epidural. Jared later told me I was so out of it my gown had fallen off and I was sitting on the bed naked and the nurse had to put it back on me. Jared also told me I repeatedly called him an asshole. I dont remember any of that lol. Well I got my epidural at 7cm and in less than 20 minuets I was 10cm and ready to push. To my disappointment I had progressed so quickly my epidural did not have time to kick in. I pushed for an hour and felt it all. Definitely not fun. But finally my sweet little boy was here. It was so emotional. Even Jared cried a little. Now we are home and I could not imagine a life without him. Ryder is my little snuggle bug. I love him more than anything. I will keep everyone updated on how he is doing and the milestones he reaches. As always thank you for reading.

Lauren